Thursday, July 4, 2013

ya girls almost dunnnnnn! ; ))

  • go to atleast 5 rockets games. GSW, 3/16  4 more.
  • go skydiving.
  • go to atleast 3 concerts. SXSW. Black Hippy TourJ. Cole. and Drake 11/13!!
  • dine and dash.
  • run in a marathon.

lost files.

my Godson, a collection of selfies, Kendrick Lamar concert, Awet's 21st, J.Cole concert.

all good things must come to an end right??

that has nothing to do with that post, but thats just what was in my head at the moment..
i dont even know how to blog anymore. 
should i updated ya'll??
do ya'll even care??
yeaa... i had a dream about this one boy i used to have a crush on.. dont even know where it came from.
we're still friends, havent seen or thought about him in a minute though so its crazy that i had a dream about him.

i sleep a lot so i dream a lot. and a lot of times theres people i know in my dreams.
i always try to analyze my dreams, but they lead me nowhere. lol.
and for some reason after i have a dream about somebody i feel the need to reach out to them.
i never do though.
how do you approach a person and say you had a dream about them?? lol.
and some of the dreams i rather just take to the grave with me.
hahahha. lets not even go there.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

i'm feeling you, the way you feeling me, like we felt each other..

Friday, June 14, 2013

summer's mineeeeeeeee.

i'm in summer school... that shit sucks.
i've been trying to find a job since the summer started.
nobody is trying to hire me.
i have so much stuff i'm trying to do, so i have to ration my money, and ask my parents for some too.
like why is it so hard to get a job?!!
my hustle is off in the summer because i make most of my money by doing other people's school work.
no school = no school work = no money. 
its a sad, sad life man. lol.

Chance the Rapper.

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tryna put ya'll on some new music, well it may be new to ya'll..
he performed at the illmore at sxsw, and we had never heard of him. 
the few songs he did were cool, i wasnt tryna hear it though we were worried about the big name celebrities. lol.
but yea, like a month later i downloaded his mixtape and its soooo legit.
like really good, i jammed it for like 2 weeks straight on repeat. 
i love when people put me on good music so here ya'll go!
now ya'll can claim ya'll were on him before he really blows up. 
lol. *eye rolls*

updated bucketlist.

  • go to atleast 5 rockets games. GSW, 3/16  4 more.
  • go skydiving.
  • go to atleast 3 concerts. SXSW. Black Hippy Tour. 1 more hopefully the J Cole concert later this month.
  • dine and dash.
  • run in a marathon.

half the year is gone and i'm not even halfway done.. lol.
i keep avoiding the marathon part, not cause i cant run it but cause i'm scared to!
i have no idea why, but i keep putting it off. i'll get it done though.
and no one wants to go skydiving with me, and i chicken out everytime i think i'm gonna dine and dash. lmao.
i reallllly want to do it though.
I gotta wait until the season starts so i can go to some rockets games.
but i feel like i'll be able to get everything done.
i hope so.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

9 times outta 10 there's always an alterior motive.

4 outta those 9 times the motive will be positive.

glass half empty, half full kind of thing..

Sunday, May 12, 2013


I used to be so in love with B5 when I was in middle school.
So in love, like a freaking fanatic!
I know everything about them and at one point i was obsessed.
now looking back and seeing how my little sister is so damn obsessed with 1 direction, I realize how crazy i was. lol.
but anyway they have a new single out and its great!

hey boo.

Thursday, May 9, 2013

i cant wait to have kids!

he's sooooooooo adorable.

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

cant sleep...

i have a final tomorrow i should be sleep.
but i cant.. i will eventually, but i wanted to blog this.
i miss someone.. terribly.
its some friends that walk out of your life and youre just cool with it.. its their fault, or ya'll grew apart, or some other circumstances.
and its some situations that i feel, that maybe i shouldve fought harder to save our friendship.. i've only felt that way about a few people though. very few people.
its crazy when a person cares about you much more than you care about yourself, and is willing to accept you for who you are...
its just like our relationship was so easy.. 
even though we were both stubborn and used to argue like crazy, he's just one of those people i felt 100% around. well for the most part.
and i miss having that..
maybe i dont miss him,but i miss how comfortable our friendship was, or having someone hold me down without me even realizing it.
i was young and confused with life.. i still am, but looking back at how i was when i was at 17/18 it baffles me.
i saw him a few days ago, and it really kills me seeing that we were like besties and now whenever we see each other we dont even acknowledge one another.
i mean i feel this way now but whenever i see him, i'm stubborn too and i dont speak, and i just get this bad taste in my mouth. lol.
a lot of shit has transpired between then and now but i know the kind of person he is and he's done......
and i am too. 
but not really cause i miss him. 
i do. i'm a simp.
and i hate myself for feeling this way. but throughout our friendship he showed me that he had my back 100% and i just feel like i cant give up on this.
its been a good 3 years since weve talked though, i wouldnt even know where to begin....
whenever i see old friends it brings back emotions that i have suppressed. its depressing sometimes.
but i have a final tomorrow so good night.

Monday, April 22, 2013

my anxiety is at an all time high. 
between all the robbings at UofH and the Boston bombings ive been very paranoid lately.
I was on the verge of having a panic attack today at the hospital.
I volunteer at Memorial Hermann and everytime someone walked in with a bag, or looked in their bag, or just looked suspicious at all I would cringe.
the hospital is always a target for people.
i dont like to talk about my anxiety but its gotten really bad lately.
i'm always on edge and i'm always paranoid.
its annoying but i've got to stay on my toes, we arent safe as we think we are.
its only by God's grace.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Sunday, April 14, 2013

just a rant, just a ramble, just some thoughts....

i dont like people.
i like people, i just like good people.
people who are peaceful, and happy and content with themselves.
people like me. no gas, but I embody all those traits..
but most people arent like that... thats why I dont like people.

i've always wanted a tight knit family.
i've always wanted to be a mother. 

i dont like chris brown.
he's a bad person. he has bad character.
i dont give not one fuck about forgiving and forgetting.
ok, he just popped up on the tv. i dont wanna talk about him. lol.

its crazy how you're so happy, and elated and on cloud 9 when you're in love.
but when the heartbreak comes.. 
i just felt helpless, and then depressed, and then i was never hungry. 
and it just felt like my heart just hurt.
and its like i was too young...i wasnt ready to live through a heartbreak.
all this was a long time ago, but it scares me that its inevitable to happen again.
to anyone, to everyone actually.
that scares me.

right now i'm just coasting.
having fun.
turning up every chance i get.
every chance i get.
i probably turn up a bit more than most.
but what can i say i like to have fun.
going to ATX next weekend.
strictly to turn up. i wish i could move to austin.
i love the city so much.

i still think about my ex sometimes and i'm still gonna marry that kid. 
i'm just waiting for him to come around.

but i'm about to take a nap so yeaaaaaa....

Friday, March 29, 2013

so proud of Jeremiah and EJ for crossing alpha last night.
ya'll know what that means right?!
i get into all the alpha parties freeeeeeeeee! lol.
no but really, i was on the side watching and i was just soooo proud. 
like a proud mom, watching her son become a man.
its all weird and stuff, but i knew he was so happy. and that made me even happier.
i lowkey was a tad liver than he was. hahahahaa.
just glad its over so now i can stop lying to people when they ask me when Jeremiah is. lol.
oh yea, and i met my future husband last night. but thats for another blog post. ; )))))))

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Saturday, March 23, 2013

look at pharrell though, that guy doesnt age!

watch TI dance too.
sexy, sexy.

this boy told me he wanted to give me the world.

...i've learned to take everything said by a dude with grain of salt.

Friday, March 22, 2013

updated bucketlist.

  • go to atleast 5 rockets games. GSW, 3/16  4 more.
  • go skydiving.
  • go to atleast 3 concerts. SXSW. well actually its a music festival, so they were pretty much all concerts, i'll just count it as 1. 2 more.
  • dine and dash.
  • run in a marathon.

my bucket list this year is short.... can i still add stuff on here??
honestly nothing seems that challenging to me anymore.
maybe i should put "get a job". lmao, now that is a difficult task. 
lololol. i need some more ideas! give me some more ideas.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

so much stuff happens, and i want to blog about it, but i'm soooo lazy too.
and then when i actually get to bloggin, the stuff is already old news.. or doesnt fit in chronologically. 

lol. but anyway.... i broke my iphone like 2 weeks ago finalllyyyyyyy got a new one today.
and i realized how many people actually fuck with me!
i was sincerely surprised! lol.
i didnt have any numbers so i couldnt text anyone, and i thought my phone was gonna be dry, but all the people i fuck with have hit me up between these 2 weeks. 

uhhhhh went to sxsw this year. like it was unreal. too real for words. like i just want to give a full out detailed summary of each day. i dont wanna relive it again cause its gonna make me sad that its over.
but i had a great time, met great people, partied every single day, and when i say "party", i mean likeeeee partyyyyyy. it was wild. like damnnn, i'm starting to reminisce. got so much free stuff! ya'll know i love free stuff. my only L, was that i couldnt take pictures. smh. cause i was using my old nokia, and there was no way in hellll i was gonna pull that out anywhere. lol. so you can check our instagrams and shittttt. @trixieb_ @nicolejoe @toe_kayy @lodie_doddy. 
this spring break was a teaser of summer 2k13. 
planning a trip to vegas as we speak!

Monday, March 11, 2013

people dont get me.

..half the time i dont get myself.
people dont understand me.
they dont understand why i'm so confident, or why i think so highly of myself...
like i'm supposed to have low self esteem or something! lol.
i admit sometimes i come off a bit egotistical and narcissistic only cause i havent quite defined the line between confident and cocky, but hey, i'll admit that freely. thats one of my faults.
another reason i'm so confident in myself is cause i know my strengths and my weaknesses.
like nobody can tell me anything about myself that i dont already know. lol.
i swear once you start being real with yourself, you become happy, even though people around you wont get it you will.
and i came to all these realizations at a young age, so i was always pretty content with myself. was just recently i started realizing people dont get the fact that i'm this way.. cause even outta high school i knew i was the shit, then i started making a name for myself in college, its like people around me make a big deal of it, but i honestly i wouldnt expect any less of myself.
i have high expectations on life, and i'm not the type of person that thinks things will just fall into your lap.
the world dont work that way, you have to put some effort in.

i'm just so annoyed by people.
like i wish people would not focus so hard on what i'm doing and try to do their own thing.
i swear its not that hard.
just speak it into existence or try, try again.
thats all i do.

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

i'm back.... -_-

i have anxiety issues.
seperation issues.
trust issues....
its usually ok because i'm always out, always doing something.
but when i'm not i start getting anxious.
i thought i felt better. but i'm stressed.
thats what it is...
i had a test today, i'm taking 2 tests friday...
but something else is wrong, i feel it but i dont know what it is.
i guess i'll just sleep it off.
i hate being alone... but i feel like i'm always alone.
today has just not been my day.
i want some indian food.
i have a lunch date on friday.
i asked him out, but i'm making him pay of course.
wow. that just cheered me up! 
ahahahaaa. its amazing.

Sunday, February 24, 2013

one thing that really pisses me off is when people are racially ignorant.
like with all my heart it pisses me off!
its 2013, there is no reason why you should be racist, or uneducated about other people's culture.
it really irks me how people still make a big deal about race, or feel uncomfortable when surrounded by other races.
its so annoying, i wish everyone were color blind so the world would be more accepting of others.
ya'll know i love the swirl, interracial dating, learning about other peoples' culture, and whatnot.
we gotta learn how to see people's character rather than skin tone or ethnic background.

how i feel when i start thinking.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

my allstar weekend experience. (5 stars)

i say this in the most humblest way possible, but its really nothing to a boss.
like, i didnt expect any less of myself.
it was amazing. the WHOLE weekend.
like beyond amazing, definitely topped the drake after party, when we were partying with Drake, Waka Flocka, and J. Cole. topped the night 10 times overrrrrrrr.
didnt take as many pics, cause i still have this wack ass 3Gs and the camera sucks, and it has no flash, so most of my pics in the club are boo boo, but nonetheless, i was there, and i experienced it with my niggas so thats all that matters.

a glimpse of our weekend......
me nicole and awet before the KD party, fun night, we made sooooo much money! hahaha. (insider)
 the replacement trio.
VIP at the diddy party with Bria.
 i was chilling in diddy's section tryna snap pics on the cool. didnt want to seem like a fan, even though i was DYINGGGGG inside.
 Quincy, diddy's son.
 I wanted to take a selfie with him but... I have a 3Gs. I'm too ashamed. lol.
we he walked in.
 it was only right we pregame with ciroc. hahahaaa.
 courtside at the D League Allstar game. funny story, I was actually sitting with the team owners. like real owners of real NBA teams! i mean, it was the D league, but thats still live. I even got this guy's business card! He owners the Idaho stampede! you shouldve seen the way my eyes lit up. lol.
I didnt know when you sit courtside at games they cater to you.. and they give you free food, like as much as you want! lol. i only got a pretzel, but man i thought that was live.

 me and blake chilling.
 ghetto posing at the jam session. ahahahahaa.
living lavish at hotel derek. 

 me and awet tryna get at ya bish!
i look so grown! 
at RA on valentines day.
 courtside at the Celebrity allstar game! Clyde Drexler came over to give me a high five!!!
 common and maya moore!
 little ass Kevin Hart! he is so funny, and so miniature!
 Swizz Beats, Bu Thiam, T.O, and Chris Brown all at Diddy's party.

nicole and awet's picstitches, they got one of the hundreds diddy threw and diddy gave nicole a ciroc bottle.
diddy's party was the livest party i've ever been too. 
he was soooooo live and he kept throwing money into the crowd!
not 1s but 100s!
yes hundred dollar bills! at least 20!
everyone i came with got atleast 1, and one girl got $400.
its gonna be soooooo hard to top that night and party!
I dont want it to be over, ughhhhhhhh. man i'm ready to turn up again.
spring break is in a couple of weeks so i guess the turn up is near!