Monday, January 30, 2012

today was a good day.

lunch date with Remi today. oh yuhhhhh.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

today's simi's birthday.

sucky picture, but thats me, kendra && Tae Heckerd. the actress from The Game.
she came to the alpha probate last semester && i was like ahhhhhhh! : O!
just another celebrity to add to my list. hahaa! ^__^
but anyway, it was funny cause i saw her walk in && i told my friend, "wow she's really pretty."
not realizing that it was her. i just figured she was an AKA, i mean. she had the look.
she would have been a dime but she aint have no ass though. && that threw me off, cause on tv she looks real thick && stuff. but she aint have noooooo assss.
hahahahaa. its ohkay, cause she was really pretty. her hair was lovely too. 
she was real friendly, && nice. i like her.
(my grammar is horrible. but i like it.)

i hope it lasts.

i'm either schizophrenic or bipolar.
no bullshit.
i'm gonna get myself checked out.
no bullshit.
but i'm happy now.. now meaning at this moment.
the kind of happy you feel when you like know a secret.
or when you receive a package that you ordered 2 months ago && forgot about.
that kind of happy... if that makes sense. lol.
i hope it lasts...
i got a lunch date with Remi tomorrow. i'm bringing my camera...
my blog is photo less.


Bucketlist for 2012.

  • take a roadtrip. (in && out of state)
  • go to atleast 3 concerts.
  • get into a 21 && up club.
  • go to a gun range.
  • sleep on a roof.
  • audition for the Real World.
  • get my nipple repeirced.
  • consume weed brownies.
  • hide && seek in the stadium. 
  • Friday, January 27, 2012


    what they say about me..... i think they got it right.

    Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. 

    Thursday, January 26, 2012

    at the end of the day, i always run back to the one i started with.

    my thoughts are out of control....
    ehhhhh, goodnight.

    Wednesday, January 25, 2012

    no one understands.

    tumblr is the only thing that makes me happy anymore.
    like truly elated.
    i dont know if thats a horrible thing, but i ohkay with it.
    i've given up on everything...
    everyone. not only cause of Jake.
    cause i'm just through trying.
    i'm gonna be exactly who i want to be.
    && thats a person that doesnt give a fuck.
    like i dont give a fuck.
    dont mistake that with non chalantness. (if thats even a word)
    from now on i'm just do whatever the fuck i feel like doing.
    i'm mean i've been doing that from the jump, but now, its like no holds bar.
    man, i'm just depressed, i'm not even gonna lie....
    they say, im "too strong" to let this affect me, or "there's plenty of fish in the sea".
    fuckkkkkkkk offffffffffffff!
    like damn, let me just grieve in peace. shit.
    anyway my tumblr is dope. 

    Monday, January 23, 2012

    && honestly, i cant even tell you who i am now..

    Sunday, January 22, 2012

    my cute little bitch.

    but i hate him.
    hi alvin.
    i'm kidding. i love you. ; ))

    bria, shelli, && jojo.

    goodtimes man.

    love these girls. they mean the world to me.

    Saturday, January 21, 2012

    baby i dont know, what you do to me.

    May 21st 2010.

    i cant forget that today.
    sometimes i tear up... 
    sometimes the tears actually fall...
    today was one of those days.
    its not really an issue to me, it doesnt really bother me anymore.
    infact it keeps me humble.
    but i still have flashbacks of Tobi's funeral.
    like those Hollywood flashbacks... where you feel like you're actually there. everything is vivid && real.
    i remember everything.
    every friggin detail.
    where i sat, what i wore, the way David broke down when he was reading Psalms 23...
    i cant get that image out of my head.
    i try not to think about it but it just happens.
    i'm not gonna lie && say i think about him everyday,
    but he does cross my mind quite often.
    Tragic the way he passed, but it was God's will. 

    Friday, January 20, 2012

    my pics from DC.... finally.

     president Obama was in that limo!
    my cousins didnt want to do anything so i went to go visit my friend Kendra, at Howard && we took the subway to DC. it was an experience. my first time ever riding the subway. lol.
    all the buildings looked super old. like colonial.
    everything was fast paced. i loved it! we walked through DC && we saw the occupy DC protesters. (they were in the tents)
    i also went to the white house. i was surprised cause its not that big. well as big as i imagined it. 
    but then again everything up north has like basements. so most of the white house is like underground.
    && then we were walking through all the memorial sites, i snapped the lincooln memorial && some other stuff.
    && while we were walking back, we saw all these police officers speed off in one direction && we were like wtf?!
    then they started blocking off the roads... && i was like somethings going down.
    so we waited && we saw this like parade of officers.
    12 on motorcycles, like 3 vans, && like 4 different suburbans.
    && thats when i knew! cause i could see in one of the suburbans that their were guys in full out like uniforms with guns && i knew it was snipers!!!!!
    i was like damnnnnnnn!!!! 
    its serious. so once that whole thing was over, i asked the officer on the street if that was OBAMA??
    && he ever so casually nodded his head yes. 
    me && kendra were like freaking out.
    like that was really him!
    that made my whole trip. ahhhhhhhh.

    Sunday, January 15, 2012

    finally back from my little vacay..

    dont wanna talk about it..
    i mean i will later. when i can post pictures.
    but for now i just wanna vent..
    one thing i love about myself is that nothing ever stops me.
    i never limit myself based on silly laws or whatnot. lol.
    i like testing myself && pushing others to see how far they willl go.
    some like to call it manipulation. i call it "unaware participation."
    but anyway, its gotten to a point where i'm not satisfied with anything.
    cause when there's good, there's always better.
    now there's a pitchfork in the road, i can move forward blindly or look back in hopes of change.
    && honestly idk what to do.
    i never ever wanna look back on anything && feel like i didnt do enough.. but then again you shouldnt go fixing what aint broke right??
    ....this all sounds like jibberish i bet.
    sometimes i actually "woosah" && remind myself i'm only 20.
    i just did that right now. lol.
    goodnight ya'll.

    Thursday, January 12, 2012

    i'm ready to come back to Houston.

    boy, do i have some stories to tell. 

    Saturday, January 7, 2012

    leaving for DC tomorrow morning!

    still up.
    practicing how to correcting draw/fill in my eyebrows.
    lmao. i have no shame.
    today i got my eyebrows waxed for the first time ever.
    yes, i said ever. 
    i'm 20 i just got my eyebrows done when my peers have been doing them since the age of 13.
    lol. i find that hilarious.
    let me even tell ya'll.
    walking into the shop i wasnt sure if i was getting them threaded or waxed.
    i just assumed threaded cause that's what everyone does now. i guess.
    but at this shop they waxed.
    so i was like alright whatever,i still wanna do it.
    so i'm sitting in the chair. i told the lady exactly how i want them. 
    "just clean them up. not too thin. a little arch."
    i didnt want any confusion or to come out with a nail shop horror story.
    so she put the wax on. it was a little warm.
    then she rippedddddddd it off.
    like i was preparing myself for it, but damnnnn.
    like i was in shock. 
    it wasnt that bad, but it was still bad.
    what made it worse was that she did it quick.
    like wax, rip, wax, rip, wax, rip.
    lmaooo. i didnt have enough time to recover after the rips.
    && then when she was done i was like. ohkayyyy... like is this it??
    i dont know why, i guess my i figured my face would be transformed after my eyebrows were done.
    but i felt the same. like i didnt see the big deal about getting your eyebrows done.
    so now that their "done" its still not good enough.
    i gotta fill them in && arch them, && contour them.
    had to got to walmart && buy brushes, concealer, eye pencils. (which i got the wrong color of)
    i'm too lazy for all this.
    but i guess, i'm a lady && i'm too old to walking out the house with my face not done. i finally got someone to look good for. ; ))

    girl crush. ; ))

    Thursday, January 5, 2012

    i got a car today.

    Wednesday, January 4, 2012

    my bucketlist for 2012. no big deal.

    • take a roadtrip. (in && out of state)
    • go to atleast 3 concerts.
    • get into a 21 && up club.
    • go to a gun range.
    • sleep on a roof.
    • audition for the Real World.
    • get my nipple repeirced.
    • consume weed brownies.
    • hide && seek in the stadium. 
    one of my biggest fears in life is to look back one my life when i'm like my late 20s && 30s and be like.
    "damn i wish i should've done ____ when i was younger/while i had the chance.."
    like i'm a risk taker && i'll try almost anything once.
    i'm seriously down for whatever.
    thinking about my experiences in 2011 i've done a lot.
    seen a lot.
    been a lot.
    met a lot of people.
    i mean it was good experience wise.
    i mean my blog got some great stories out of it. but this year...
    i need to go BIGGER.
    i plan on it.
    i want to have stories to tell my great, great, great grandkids.