Monday, October 31, 2011

my eyes dont shed tears but boy they pour, when i'm thinking bout you.
the struggle.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

the sad truth.

.....sometimes blood aint no thicker than water.

took out my braids today...

with the help of laura.
well actually it was a 2 day process.



 && after i washed it.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

i was rereading that one post...
i misspoke. 
Tear && JiggaBoo cared about me immensely as well.
granted they werent perfect strangers, but i dont wanna overlook them.

just bought my WTT tickets.

ahhhh yeaaaa ahhh yeaaaa. *drake voice.*

Friday, October 28, 2011

last night's dinner.



breakfast for dinner.
&& i made everything from scratch! 
mmk, well except the biscuits.

JoeBaLo.

every girl needs a Joe in their life.
words cant even describe how i feel about this boy.
you ever had a dude that cared about you like you were their own?? 
not a family member, not someone you've known since you were 2, not someone tryna hit, just someone that waltz into your life && actually cares about you, goes outta there way to make sure your ohkay??
never in my life have i met a perfect stranger that cares about my well being just cause.
its crazy. 
i met him a few weeks ago && he's impacted my life so much.
i got so much love for him. 
i feel like i'm the sister he's never had && he's the type brother i've always wanted..
I just thank God for his life...
he does a lot for me, && doesnt want anything in return.
even when i do offer.
i wish i had 20 more people like him in life.



the way i love should be illegal.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

LOST ONES.

my 1,000th post!

i could go all sappy, cause this is a big milestone for me.
hahaha. i remember my first post like it was yesterday.
lmao. the story about Victor in the summer.
gahleeeee. how the times have changed.
thanks to all those who've been with me from the jump, either hating, or laughing.
i could careless, ya'll know who i am, where i stand, && how fabulous i am.
hahaha. i mean that in the least arrogant way possible.
but seriously, this has been a great journey for me. 
&& i hit over 10,000 views a few days ago! OMG.
ya'll are great!
keep reading, either way i'll keep blogging. ^__^

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

content.

i'm content with life.
not happy, not sad just content.
i'm done trying to people please.
even though i sucked at it from the jump.
i just trying to live life, && go through unforgettable experiences..
i HATE the phrase, "live life with no regrets."
its so stupid.
if you have no regrets that means you have no conscience.
its ohkay to regret things.
i regret lots of things...
i'm happy i went through them but still regret them.
without realizing your faults, there is no way for growth.
...well thats just how i feel.

Saturday, October 22, 2011


i MIGHT'VE found another ride or die.

she'd hate me for putting this picture up but she's definitely blogworthy.
she doesn't read my blog anyway so its cool. haha. 


only so much a girl can take.


Wednesday, October 19, 2011

shout out to the avid readers && the anonymous followers.
I appreciate you! ; ))

Take Care: November 15th

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Monday, October 17, 2011

realizations.

i hate the fact that i can never keep a straight face when i lie.
i cant stand the fact i refuse to see people true colors, especially when their right in my face.
i realized that as much as i want to be promiscuous, i'm not. at all. whatsoever.
i hate when dudes put their hands on me.
i dont like when people tell me to calm down.
i still have hope that someone out there wont ever let me down. ever.
it bothers me that i'm no ones first choice.
i cant stand when people think i'm over exaggerating.
i like to tell people their delusional. 
i secretly live for moments when i introduce myself to someone && they already know who i am. (for whatever reason.)
i have a problem accepting defeat.
my strengths are also my weaknesses.
i realized that i've been hurt more by my friends than any of my past loves.
my blog is my haven. wouldnt trade it for a million dollars, && ya'll know how much i like money.
it bothers me that people dont think i've ever been in love.
i feel like when i'm happy the world is happy.
i'm infatuated with albino children.
i want the world to accept me as me, i dont want to accept how the world wants me to be.
...just some things i realized.

i swear i'm not illiterate!

i just get so excited making my blog posts, && dont believe in too much proofreading, cause then i start to change stuff.
i know i always have spelling, && grammatical errors but ya'll get what i'm saying! lol.
i'll try to work on it. :/

Sunday, October 16, 2011

got a new found love for dream catchers.

the whole idea of catching your dreams entices me.

i look like my brother in this picture.

i think i'm gonna stop drinking.

man, i might actually do it.
people always try to take advantage while i'm drunk!
Gahleeeee, its become a problem now.
this boy definitely threw me into a pool, against my will at this pool party.
but then again i wasnt even drunk at that point...
&& then had the audacity to try to talk to me after. but ya'll know i dont play that.
i mean i was fully clothed, wearing vintage YSL. come on guyyy. i begged him not too but he still threw me in.
but i got him good. lol.i hit him in his nuts. TWICE. ; )) he didnt fall over, but i know he was hurting.
its cause i drunk flirted with him, but for no more than 10 minutes && then this nigga caught feelings!
SMH.
wouldnt leave me alone the whole night.
even after i sobered up.
he kept touching me, && kissing on me, && this nigga licked IN my ear! inside of itttttttttttt! yuckkkkkkkk.
that might turn some girls on but no, not I. that shit is disgusting!
mind you i just met him like 2 hours before.
i'm getting nauseous just thinking of it.
smh. never again.
some other stuff happened to, nothing i wanna disclose. 
lol. dont know who all is reading.
he was 21 but acted like an 8 year old.
yep, i have no more hope for mankind. 
i'm switching teams.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

yesterday i went to CSO meeting. (Caribbean Student Organization) with my friends && they asked us to introduce ourselves.
when they got to my turn all i could do was smile && giggle. 
i wasnt nervous, i just get shy around people i havent met.
my  friends were baffled. lol. 
as loud, arrogant, && obnoxious as i am, yes i am pretty shy until i get comfortable with people. lol.
which doesnt take long. but that made me think.. 
i wish someone could give me an accurate description of myself.
i feel like i'm not aware of how i act all the time, or how i come across towards people.
i must be missing something cause people be acting stank towards me.
&& i be "like why??"
..it just so happens to be the people that are close to me.
this shit crayyyyyy. they got me stressing out. breaking out with acne.
never been one thats TOO proud, i'm proud, dont get me wrong, but i'm mature enough to admit my faults.
unlike some people. -___-
i try not to stress over people that i know wont be as successful as me in the future but damnnnnn how much can a girl take??

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

my definition of love.

Trixie's Interlude.

i love when people doubt me, whenever they underestimate.
a lot of times people feel as they have a lot to prove to others, i dont feel that way at all.
i feel as though, i've proven myself enough times, to enough people, that i could really care less.
i'm 19 && i have no care in the world, but am fully conscious of my future...
idk, it makes sense in my head.
the best way to get me to do something to tell me that i cant do it.
its the worst type of reverse psychology but i always works.
i love proving people wrong about me.
no one knows me. i'm like a fire cracker, no one knows when i'm gonna pop!
ahahahaahaaaaaaa. omg. that was funny.
my next plan of action.... get someone to write an interlude about me.
i need to date a musician.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

emotional deja vu.

i just got these issues...
trust issues.

Brandon's 21st.

Sandra throwing them back. lmao.
white girl was getting it.
team S.P.R.E./\.D.
me && the birthday boy.

flawless.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

i swear me && Drake be on the same page.

"..too strung out on compliments, overdosed on confidence, started not to give a fuck && stop fearing the consequence.."

i think i found my calling.

i want to be a motivational speaker.
i just feel like people walk around following rules, doing what their told, && just being ordinary.
but how far has being ordinary got someone in life??
no boost but i believe i'm extraordinary.
its the inner rebel in me.
i do what i want. && stopped fearing the consequence.
big risk, big reward. && my life consists of daily risks, if you couldnt tell.
lol. 
maybe i'm just feeling myself today, but i really think know i inspire some people.
(i know cause they tell me. lol)
i mean just do what you want. 
live your life how you want it.
forget how everyone else feels.
i just wish everyone was as bold as me. 
i mean sometimes it is a problem i get, cause i get obnoxious but then again thats just me.
it just irks me how much people limit themselves because their too concerned with other peoples' opinions.
i mean like damnnnnnn! 
they word "no" or "stop" has never stopped me from doing anything i wanted to do.
actually, nothing has ever stopped me from getting/doing something i want.
except my grades. lowkey.
but even with that.. my determination && drive makes up for where i lack in grades.
i refuse to fail. its just not a possibility. 
no matter how long it takes, how many hours i gotta study, how many stuff i got to cheat on, how "creative" i have to be, how many people i gotta leech off of.
lol. i'm serious. there will be a Dr. in front of my name!
hopefully, rather sooner than later.



Monday, October 3, 2011

my Beyonce experience.

where do i even begin??
today i met Beyonce.
i touched her.
she touched me.
we exchanged words.
we took a picture.
one of the best experiences i've had in my life.
there's a long elaborate story behind this but my adrenaline is still high from like 8 hours ago. lol.
i'll just stick to the high points.
BIG shoutout to my friends Sandra && Shay for letting me know about the event.
Shay got a email from her women's studies class that invited them to an event with Tina Knowles.
an interview about her life, focusing on her business, && her fashion line.
she told me about it last week && we were all excited about it, but earlier today we decided that we weren't gonna go cause we NEEDED to be in cal 2. NEEDED
 so me, michelle, && shay were on the shuttle coming from Cullen, when shay got a text from Sandra that she saw Beyonce in the library.
&& that was totally plausible cause Tina Knowles was supposed to be there.
we started freaking out on the bus && soon as the bus stopped sprinted to the library.
i almost tripped, stumbled. had my bookbag on my back running like a crazy person to the library.
we got there. 
i was frantic, outta breath, && excited!!
a few other people confirmed that she was actually there. 
&& we headed upstairs to the event, showed them my school id then proceeded to walk inside && find the closest seat i could to the front. 
which was wayyyy at the back. lol.
it wasnt a big crowd, cause it was a private event so no one really knew about it.
honestly i would have stood up the whole time, just to get a glimpse of Beyonce but i was good where i was sitting.
The interview started. Tina Knowles is gorgeousssssssss!!!!
like seriously no boost.
she was stunning. everything about her && Beyonce was flawless.
skin, hair, nails, teeth, outfit. all flawless.
She had a good interview. was very funny. shared a lot about herself. broke into tears a few times. was just real graceful && elegant.
after she got done with the interview they did a Q&A && she answered one of my questions! lol.
i asked, "Do you ever look back on an outfit that you've ever worn or designed && thought 'what the hell was i thinking??'"
&& she answered it! lol.
so the started concluding the interview, everyone was packing up there stuff && i ran up towards the front so i could snap a photo of Beyonce. i was literally 1 foot away from her!
she was talking to the lady next to her, && as soon as she was done i was like "can i please get a picture?!!"
she was like "sure!"
so i basically trampled the people that were next to her, cause was sitting in the middle of her row && i stood next to her, put my hand around her waist, held her hand, && smiled like there was no tomorrow!
lol. her security guard was tapping me, trying to get my hands off of her, but i turned around looked at him said "NO!" then turned back && smiled for my picture.
ahahahahaaa.
after i got my picture security whisked her away.
i was the ONLY person to get a picture with her. ^__^
i snapped some more pictures then they made everyone leave the room we where in so they could do interviews && whatnot.
me && they girls stayed upstairs, now by this time basically all 40, 000 students at UofH were in, around, or by the library. 
which was crayyyyyy crayyyyyyy. 
everyone was trying to get a picture or trying to get to the area we were in, which was blocked off by police.
mannnnnnnnn, today was amazingggggggg. 
she's so beautiful. like seriously.
her skin is flawlessssssss!
ya'll will see in my pictures, i used my point && shoot not even my good canon.
&& yess she is pregnant, had her baby bump && everything. 
she wasnt much taller than me, && i'm 5'5 && she was wearing heels.
not as thick as she looks on tv. actually she was really skinny.
gahhhhhhhleeeeee. today was amazing.
 ^ zoom in on her nails. now tell me she aint from Houston?!! she must've went to Angies. lol.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

my hubby. ^___^

this weekend. >




have more pics on my other camera but i forgot the usb at my house. :/

take care 10/24

Saturday, October 1, 2011