Friday, September 30, 2011

seriously.

i hate everybody. i wish everybody would just fuck off.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

a little poem i wrote. well not really. but its sounds like a poem. lmaooo.

i love love.. && i believe thats the problem.
i believe in love... && i believe thats the problem.
i'm too anxious for love... && i believe thats the problem.
whole moral of the story is love is the problem.

my son dropped an AMAZING album yesterday.

yes. i do believe in incest.

RIP Micheal.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

this is disturbing...

never in my 19, almost 20 years of life, have i been "the other woman."
aint no place relevant besides number one if you ask me.
but its just so weird! 
on my part i was unaware && caught off guard by the whole situation.
its just upsetting to me cause i thought i took the necessary precautions, did my background research && everything... 
but when you ask someone a direct question && they give you a direct answer && you have no reason to doubt them like why wouldnt you believe them??!!
but i forgot to take into account that boys are shady lying pieces of shit. 
i'm dissappointed in myself. i got played by the most irrelevant, non motherfucking factor person to cruise this earth.
-______-
it doesnt hurt that much cause it happened months ago but everything is just unraveling now, but i'm still pissed. 
it just caught me off guard. i lost some cool points for that one. lol.
i'd never purposely put myself in a situation like this or ever even wanna go through this again.
i'm just a bit distraught... i'll get over it in a day or two. lol.
i just wanted to vent. saying enough, with out saying anything at all.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

tizzy.

tizzt = tired. (trixie-isms)
tonights gonna be my first night sleeping at my apartment... 
well if i ever decide to go to sleep.
quick sum up....
slept at shay && michelle's yesterday.
cal 2 test today.. hopefully i beasted.
worked the football game.. $50 richer.
met cool ass white girl, julie.
wack ass football party. -___- seriously a waste of time.
mike came over..
monica's walking him to the car while i write this.
not sleepy at all but tired.
goodnight. Jah Bless.
- Trixie <3.



Wednesday, September 21, 2011

sighhhhh* love at first sight..

apartment #905

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLLLYYYYYYY!!! in my apartment.
man. its an odd feeling.. i'm excited yet nervous at the same time.
my first apartment ever. didnt think i'd even been in apartment at this age. 
i planned on living off my parents till my husband came && took me away.... or atleast until after i graduated from college. lol.
so much responsibility && stuff. but my roommate is cool, my closet is HUGE, && atleast i'm not in the house... ^__^
but anywayyyyyy, so we go there yesterday to sign the lease && move in.. 
we get inside, first of all it smelled like ass, AND THEN of all they claimed it was "cleaned" but my face was like -_____-. 
it wasnt dirty, but it wasnt up to par. at all.
we opened to fridge && saw some dead baby roaches -___________-
one thing about me. i DONT do roaches. at all. whatsoever. in any circumstance.
i was like ewwww. but ohkay, its understandable. new apartment && all.
we saw some other stuff thats not up to par as well so we went to the head office, they got maintenance to come yesterday && today.. so i was like cool, cool...
we leave, come back a few hours later && i swear to you. its like these roaches were playing hide && with each other!!
like WTF! i was like fuck this, fuck this apartment. fuck all this shit!
i was like ughhhh hell no. cant stay here tonight. 
like a jamboree of roaches! mannnnn, i was like this cant be life. 
so me && monica went to cullen && crashed at laura's.
thank God for laura. 
anywayyyyyyyy, we went to walmart today && bought everythingggggggg.
got back && sanitized && raided the whole place. bought some things to make it look homey too.
its still bland, && empty but its coming along. feel free to offer me some furniture!
i'm not sleeping there tonight either, i rather crash on campus. lol.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

"..yesterday is history, tomorrow's a mystery && today is a gift, thats why we call it the present..."
-Kung Fu Panda.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

but check out my new bio though ^__^ ==========>

so young, so broken.

no one gets me.. im usually cool with it, im a very complex person, i'll admit but sometimes, just sometimes i need someone to be like "i feel you girl."

Friday, September 16, 2011

this weekend has all been a blur..

my body is aching.
my legs are jello.
my arms are sore..
i feel like my body is giving up on me.
my life consists of going to classes && studying.
nothing more, nothing less.
its exhausting. utterly exhausting.
i'm so tired. like blahhhhhhhhhh.
i want to partyyyyy, && drink alcohol.
i'm moving into my apartment monday.. oh joy! -____-
i'm tired... everyone likes me. && J. Cole loves me.
i'm about to go to bed... i need to catch up on sleep.
i love tonia... && her cousin, whose my new honorary cousin.
he thinks i'm crazy.. but then again who doesn't.

swim good.


16 months today..

&& he's still on my mind frequently... 
Rest In Peace Tobi.

The Rose That Grew From Concrete

One of the best books i've ever read in my life.
I cried like 3 times throughout the whole book. lol.
He was so much more than a "gangster rapper" he was intelligent, an intellectual with a thug exterior...
its crazy, the world will never see another Tupac. 
i wish he was still alive today... i wonder how much he'd impact the society if he was still living today...
...the world will never know.

my J Cole experience!!

















"so... went to the J. Cole concert, i was HYPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! so friggin exciteddddd. so we got there a little after 8. && the line was mad long. like danggggggg. i was like oh hell nawwww, i'm not going to the end of this line, it was wayyyy too crucial i was tryna scope out people i knew so i cut them, but thankfully there was distraction so we got into the line. kinda close to front  && i was surprised cause no one charged us up or anything cause ya'll know i wouldve been knocking chicks down. lol. but anyway we get inside and the place was like half filled already, but people were just lounging around not worried about there spot in the front lmao. suckers. so me && my crew, started off at the side. FARRRRRR right, but then i started working my way to the front. i told everybody to stay close to me cause regardless i was getting to the front. within our 1st move everybody got left behind, it was only me && crystal lol. within one move from being in the FARRRR left we were close to the middle 5 people in front of me. && i was like YUHHHHHHHHH! Lol. i was tryna make some more moves && work my way to the front bt this dude kinda saw what i was doing && closed us off! smh. he was a hoe so i was like damn this is not gonna work so i quick thought of another plan then whenever the music got crunk again && ppl started dancing i made another move closer to the front but still not where i wanted to be && i almost gave up cause we were in that position for a minute. lol. this lil paki girl standing next to me kept like rubbing up against me && she was tryna inch her way to the front too but if i'm not getting to the front NOBODY is so i looked at her && i told her, "you know your not getting in front of me right??" && then this girl wanna pop off!! CAN YOU IMAGINE?!! lol she started getting all loud like "what you mean?? i was here first.. blah blah blah blah.." she was causing a scene && this boy that was in front of us was tryna "break it up" he was like, "ya'll calm down, its not that serious. blah blah blah" lol. he was holding her back && i sure did make my way to the front! LMAO. then when i was in front of her i turned around && i smiled at her then did a little chuckle. lmao. at the end of the day i was STILL in front of her. now there was... ..only 2 people ahead of me! i was ALMOST there. i was standing by these crunk ass mexicans lol. yo they were funny AF! they kept sparking up && they knew ALL the lyrics to all the old h-town songs. they were liveeeeee. hahha. so as they were getting crunk i worked my way to.. ..the front front!! && i made it! lmao. i looked back && crystal was long gone. hahaha. stillin the back, i told her to stick with me, but she's not aggressive enough. anyway i got to the front in just enough time for j. cole to come out yo when i tell you this guy is amazing, believe me! this guy was AMAZINGGGGG. ya'll he did all my songs. he looked at me STRAIGHT in the eyes THREE different times!! the first time he looked at me, he was doing a song i forgot which && i was fumbling up on the lyrics, it was so embarrassing, cause i know he could tell, he just smiles at me some more yall when i tell yall i died, mannn i DIEDDDD! then later on he threw out a towel.. he'd been wiping his face with, like right in the front! RIGHT where i was standing, but beverly's tall ass caught it. i was so mad cause i was RIGHT thereeee! i almost fought her too. it was that serious. then later on her threw out another towel && this Asian girl caught.. ..it. && i tried to grab it from her hands but her boyfriend was there. -____- he was like 6'6 atleast. i ALMOST took an L. but he had ONE.. ..more towel left && i was determined to get it! so i waited the whole show && after he was done i guess he forgot to throw it out && it was... on his dj's table so i yelled at the dj real louddd, "AYEEEEEE, AYEEEEEE AYEEEEE DJ LEMME GET THAT TOWELL!!"  AND THEN HE GAVE IT TO MEEEEEE!!!!!!! I AM NOW IN POSSESION OF J. COLE'S SWEATY TOWELLLLLL! ^____^ HIS SWEAT TOUCHED MY FACEEEEEEE!!!!!!! ^________^ && ALL YOU HATERS CAN SUCK MY COCK. ^______^ ...&& me and monica spent the night at tonia's apartment && thats it. THE END. ^______^"

Monday, September 12, 2011

O__o/^_____^

me && monica have started planning our housewarming kickback... man, this is gonna be something serious.

see you wednesday baby! MUAHHHHHHHHH!

if my parents dont get me a BMW i will disown them.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

^__^

going to the J. Cole concert this Wednesday, words cant even express how excited i am. 
because something in my spirit is telling me that this concert is gonna be one night to remember.
i bet you i'm gonna touch him... i bet he'll call me on stage && give me a lap dance. I'm gonna lie && say its my birthday && see if he wants to treat me to dinner.....
lmao. i have a really active imagine but it could happen.
IM SO FRIGGINNNNNN EXCITEDDDDDDDDDDD!!
&& dont worry, i'll have GREAT pictures by the end of the night, i'm just gonna flash my big ass camera around, there gonna think im professional && give me a press badge....
it could happen... lol. no really, it could.

the pair on the right >

Saturday, September 10, 2011

if i ever find a Asian or White guy with dreads, i'm personally taking myself off the market.

^__^ this song plays in my head whenever i see him.

we must.

never been much of an introvert, but it suits me..

i dont like when people charge me up, but they seem do it all the time.
i'm flattered that everyone "misses" me && would like me to "hit them up" as much as i used to, but damnnn, there's a THICK line between concern && rudeness that certain people have still manage to cross.
i'm not brand new, trust me, if i was i'd personally let you know.
i've just taken some time for me.. you know??
gahleeeee, ya'll should be happy for me...
but people think i just cut them off cold turkey, but i stopped talking to pretty much everybody all together..
swear i used to use 3,000+ text messages a month, last month i barely hit 900. lmao.
i lost faith in the human race && decided to put my faith where i know it cant fail me.. with God.
&& in myself a lil bit too. lol.
cant rely on other people too make you happy, cause trust me, you'll be waiting for a lifetime...
not gonna lie, there are times when i wish i could just call up somebody, spill out my guts then be consoled, or comforted, all that jizz but i rather have my sanity than stress over who betrayed me today.

they make my ears melt && my soul bleed.


Thursday, September 8, 2011

AHHHHHHH!!!!!

omg!!!
crayyy crayyy story!!
so me && michelle were coming back from class && we saw this guy that looked familiar.. swear mid conversation... we saw him, looked at each other && instantly knew it was him.
i'm not even even gonna lie, i was kinda star struck, && freaked out a little...
man, i couldnt help it. ahhaaa.
i wanted to say hi, but was nervous && michelle aint the type to go up to anybody.
i was like damn, if shay was here she'd say how to him with me, cause we always watch his videos.
well come the next day, yesterday, we saw him again at the UC. i freaked out again. ahahha.
&& shay wanted to say hi to him. i was like nawww, leave him alone.
but of course she called him over.
we spoke a bit. he is sooooooo cute && sooooo short!
OMG i love him. i want him to be my bestie.
anyway me made michelle take a pic. ahhhhhhhh, yesterday was a good day.


Monday, September 5, 2011

Saturday, September 3, 2011

its been long overdue...

Thursday, September 1, 2011

RIP.


my FAVORITE MJ song.
It was his birthday a few days ago && i forgot to blog about it.
shame on me.
i got this crazy thing about Michael Jackson, its like how little girls super crazy emotional over  justin beiber, crying && passing out && all that stuff??
lol. i dont necessarily get like that. but man, i loveeeeee Michael Jackson.
words cant even explain.
he was seriously one of, if not the most talented people to ever walk the earth.
crazyyy.