Sunday, July 31, 2011

Saturday, July 30, 2011

thank God for good problems..

so my fish eye lens is coming in next week.
&& i'm sooooooo excited. probably the most excited i've been all summer.
so i put it on twitter && SEVEN people want photoshoots!
i'm like whaaaaaa?!! lol.
i'm excited. i didnt think one person would want a photoshoot from me.
but seven people want one... so i'm all excited && all then i remember that i suck.
&& i cant edit for shittttttt.
lol. ohkay i dont suck per se but i've just never done a photo shoot before && i dont want it to suck.
i'm excited though... who would've "thunk" it??

Thursday, July 28, 2011

story of my life.

tears cleanse the soul.

Monday, July 25, 2011

i just watched that albino documentary again..

mannn, maybe its just be but i think albanism is BEAUTIFUL.
i know its a genetic mutation && is thought of as a bad thing, maybe its something in me that prefers lightskins... but if i ever had an albino child i'd love them just as much as the rest of my kids.
it made me sad, 1st cause he had HIV && 2nd cause like he was looked down upon for something he couldnt control...
&& then when he started crying, thats when i lost it..
i guess maybe cause its more accepted && common in America nobody really looks down on albinos..
but i guess in Zimbabwe its a big deal.
he was so strong, his parents died, all he wanted to do was go to school && live a normal life...
i seriously wanted to empty out my bank account && write him a check.
man, he really touched my heart.
some people take for granted even the littlest blessing.
i'm so blessed && so grateful to God for EVERYTHING.

on the cool, i just cried like a baby..

he is SO brave.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

drunken nights.

hahaa. me && my girls sing this song with SO much passion.

well said.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

OH MY! ankara wedges.

not a real big fan of tattoos, but i can honestly say this inspires me...

hahaha. love when celebrities have personalities.

just had to check myself.

i'm scared of the next time i fall in love, its like i want this so bad, i want that to be the last one, i want to be married && start a family.. i hold that higher than everything else in life...
idk why, i'm still trying to figure that out myself, but i get so blinded by MY intentions to start a family that i fail to realize, its that its not the right time, or the right person..
i'm not gullible in the least bit && whenever i set my mind or heart on something, i get it. about 95% of the time.
&& that scares me cause i know how determined i am when i want something. lol. its crazzyyyyyy. 
well i just gave myself a chill pill... so i just gotta wait till whenever God is ready.

..&& its all my fault.

he's honestly the best thing i've never had... :/ tragic.

Monday, July 18, 2011


how can i make someone catch feeling for me, without simultaneously catching feelings for them??

....formulating a plan as we speak.


if someone was to buy me this coin purse i'd love them forever.

i wish i could trust more people...

i hate the fact that a lot of my emotions are bottled up inside.
but i feel as though only the unloyal && unreliable people are the ones that have chosen to inhabit my everyday life..
its disheartening cause i have no peace of mind... but i know only God can give me that.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

then only person i'm loving right now.

i miss them sooooo much!

baby when i used to love you...

this post is ironically titled "baby when i used to love you..."
that song was stuck in my head so ehhhh.. *shrugs*
this summer has been pretty eventful, yet utterly boring at the same time..
my summer has been filled with a lot of nonsense.
most of it had absolutely nothing to do with me, but i always seemed to get pulled into useless wahala.
&& then the whole Prince thing... ya'll are so damnn gullible. hahaaa.
nothing more than a well calculated joke.
purely for my entertainment. 
i mean i like him, he's cool && all but all that other stuff on twitter && facebook was EXTRA.
i'd never really act like that over a dude.
it was fun while it lasted. everyone was texting me && call me about it. hahaha. 
ya'll know i thrive off attention... && so did he. thats why i had to drop his ass.
plus scorpios && aquariuses are compatible anyway.
thats been my entertainment... now for my headache...
this time its not even my fault! but i lost another bestie....
i still hoping this is only temporarily, but you never know with things.
its like we took a break, but ended up breaking up forreal... on like a bestfriend level.
i dont like the person she's becoming.. its sad. when you see people change for the worst, right before your eyes. heartbreaking really. 
&& there's nothing i can do about it. i'm not her mother.
we're not even really speaking... i just gotta sit back && watch her self destruct. 
cant deny... i'll be around to pick up the pieces afterwards.
...guess the title isnt so ironic after all.

cutest video. actually made me crack up!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

TO: the dedicated.

thanks for visiting my blog. ; ))

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

omggg somebody get me these!

i saw these BOMB ass pastel pink steve madden floral oxfords on sale for $35!!!!
but they were an 8 && 1/2. smh. i almost broke down in the store.
it was tragic!


Tuesday, July 5, 2011

its like something in me just clicked...

like i'm mature now.
with childish tendencies every now && again, but mature nonetheless...
looking back on my freshman year, reflecting, reminiscing, && even regretting i just thank God.
i just really discovered myself. hahaha.
cliche but its the truth.
i anticipate life now.
like when i graduate college, get a job && start a family kinda life.
little things dont bother me, && petty things dont phase me.
its like when you look at the BIG picture, && figure out how your gonna get there, everything else is irrelevant.
GOSH, i wish i would've came to these realizations in high school.
i dont care about popularity anymore.. i'd trade all of it for a degree.
i mean i'm always gonna be well liked && the life of the party (cause i'm so fucking fun && charming ; ))
but i'd rather not be known as the girl who parties all the time && gets fucked up till the point she passes out, but as the girl who has her shit together... && she likes to party.
lol. what can i say i like to party! 
...i dont know where all this came from but i feel like in someway, i'm inspiring someone, somewhere.
or atleast giving them a good laugh.