Monday, May 30, 2011

Sunday, May 29, 2011

just precious.

aint it the truth..

i'm really good at cutting people outta my life.

like REALLY good.
like i consider it a talent of mine.
whether the problem is big or small, no matter how close we are if i feel an ounce of unloyalty or fakeness i will cut that person off without thinking twice or looking back.
one of the main reasons i cant trust people today...
maybe i just have a low tolerance for people fucking up..
actually i do. i give people like 110%, thats just the type of person i am..
&& when its not reciprocated i take that shit to heart && get offended.
i now realize how childish i can be, like cutting people off && stuff.
cause whenever im ready to make amends its like too late. 
lol. i been seeing 2 of my ex bestfriends around lately haha.
us 3 were like literally 3 peas in a pod. inseparable. 
but i cut them off. haha. very valid reasons too.
we dont even say hi anymore. we just ignore each other.
haha. i'm pretty sure we dont got ill feelings cause it was literally like 5 years ago but those friendships are longgggg gone. 
&& then just recently i cut dami off.
because of jermaine of all people. -________-
i fucking hate that kid.
i stopped talking to her for like a month, did everything by myself, lol.
 i was like lord, this cant be life
smh. then i realized i wasnt gonna let my pride && that dumbass come between me && my bestfriend.
&& we made up, like yesterday. haha. none of that gushy shit. 
just a "whats you been up to??" "nothing, whats up with you??"
seriously that how our convo went. hahaa. like nothing even occured.
like real thugs.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Friday, May 27, 2011

friends, family && lovers...

something about basketball players gets me all fervent inside. ; ))

Monday, May 23, 2011

loyalty is underrated.

you can call me many things, but you could never call me fake... i''m as real as they come.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

i feel like a proud mama. lol.


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Thursday, May 19, 2011

take a chance with me, baby i wont do you no harmmm...

i always question myself on if i've ever been in love...
i used to think i was..
i dont know what changed that.
i just question it now...
i dont feel that i had the right ingredients in making this love recipe..
if that made any sense at all.
i mean.. i feel like i've been in love && since their arent any definite definitions of what love is i guess the theory that i've come to is the the only one i can go by.
hahahhaa. i'm not drunk, just speaking my mind.
i believe that love = infatuation + affection.
&& i've given both to certain people.
but i guess that didnt work, cause we're not together now....
ive been thinking... recently start talking back with a ex i thought i was in love with.
fucked my head alllllll the way up. lol.
we'll see how this turns out... summer love #1.


Wednesday, May 18, 2011


that was a sigh of relief not of sorrow.
after a whole year, i've just come to terms with death. 
his death in particular.
for a long time, i felt guilty...
i was scared to do stuff, go places..
it humbled me right up!
gave my a hugeeeeeeee wake up call.
i still cry sometimes. randomly..
i always have flashbacks of the funeral...
the ABSOLUTE saddest day of my life.
smh... but a whole year has past && i just thank God for his faithfulness.
that is all.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

trending at 7:10am.

this brought a smile to my face, he was sincerely loved by many.

"To live in hearts you leave behind is not to die... "

Saturday, May 14, 2011

blogger has been down!

ughhhh! blogger has been down && its been scaring me.
first they told me they couldnt find my blog.
next they wouldnt let me update it.
they just fucking up all kinda ways.
made me realize how much i love my blog.
its not just my online journal, i got pics on here from wayyyyyyyy back when.
memories, that i couldnt even recall without my blog.
i swear i almost cried when it said "blog could not be found."
thats like the worse thing you could do to an avid blogger!
anyway its back up && running. 
&&i'm back to blogging soooo...
all is right in the world. ; ))

Thursday, May 12, 2011

my last day of my freshman year.

....if i could go over everything that happened this semester ya'll wouldnt even believe me.
had many regrets, but i wouldnt change anything that occured.
i made it.
i came, i saw && i conquered.
GPA isnt as high as i wanted... no one to blame but myself for that..
but the memories i leave here with balance it all out.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Sunday, May 8, 2011

ask me anything! 

Saturday, May 7, 2011

took over 90 pics....

blogger needs a slideshow thingy.