Monday, January 31, 2011

Sunday, January 30, 2011

sexy asian. ♡

save your criticism... i dont care.

Jeremiah Thriller Oluwasegun Huang-Fu Jones.

serious question...

 how does one stay faithful in a room full of hoes??

ahhhhhhh!!!!! ; ))

drunken rants, sober thoughts....

last night me && the girls got shitfaced.
like outta control drunk.
i passed out in the hallway of the dorm, was paranoid, did some stuff i dont even wanna remember.
&& then i started drunk dialing.
its like i'm aware of it, but i'm so carefree while i'm drunk it doesnt even register.
i checked my call log this morning. smh.
6 calls.
all boys.
left 2 voicemails.
in conclusion, i realized that those 6 people i called were significant one way or another in my life.
&& it took me all that to realize it.
lol. so if i ever drunk dial you, you should feel honored.
that means your pretty darn special to me. ; ))

Friday, January 28, 2011

in a state of confusion..

we do homework together...
we take naps together...
we eat together...
i think i've found "the one." 
to bad he's not the one.
...cause my love is temporary, &&  my heart belongs to another.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Sunday, January 23, 2011

when i get enough money first thing i'm gonna buy is this purse.

i'm juggling 2 hearts..

&& for some reason i have no remorse for it. 

back in houston for the weekend.

i came back cause i gotta do something on Sunday, but when i'm at school i usually have to come back for the whole weekend.
Yesterday started off the day going to Papa && Matt's basketball game with Tonia, Uncle Boudreaux && EJ.
Travis won, of course. ; ))
went back to Tonia's house && Boudreaux LS'd my life to my smh.
my aunt thinks i'm a fast lil whore!!!
which is not trueeee! lmao.
we gave all us a "talk" actually, it was cute.
then i went to dami's house.
later on we went to lizzy's dinner thingy..
it was uhmmm... quite interesting.
we ended up going to Hooters next door with Noella && Vanessa.
me && dami got hit on by this super cute white guy && his friends, including his dad.
J. Rose, 26, football coach at TAMU -Kingsville.
he kept calling us racist. ahahaha.
he must not know about my current situation.
he was a little drunk though.
noella && vanessa felt soooo uncomfortable && were being rude to the guys.
but they're young && i guess they just arent used to being hit on by older guys.
me && dami were flirting away!!
but i wish i was there with bria, shelly && jojo.
we wouldve gotten them to buy us drinks && went to chill with them afterwards.
they asked, but dami was scared. smh.
it made realize how open minded college has made me.
i always willing to try new things, chill with random people && not judge others.
going out again tonight... single && ready to mingle!! ; ))

&& i left my purse in Tonia's car so i couldnt even take pics! :'(

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Tell Him - Lauryn Hill.

Yo, hehe
Tell him, ho, it's like uhh, you know, uhh
Sweet, sweet
Tell him, uhh, mmm

Let me be patient, let me be kind
Make me unselfish without bein' blind
Though I may suffer, I'll envy it not
And endure what comes, 'cause he's all that I got and tell him         <---
my FAV
ORITE verse.

Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
And it'll be alright

And tell him
Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

Now I may have faith, to make mountains fall
But if I lack love, then I am nothin' at all
I can give away, everything I possess
But I'm without love then I have no happiness
I know I'm imperfect and not without sin
But now that I'm older all childish things end and tell him

Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

Tell him
Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

I'll never be jealous
And I won't be too proud
'Cause love is not boastful
Ooh and love is not loud

Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
Everything is gonna, is gonna be alright
Ooh, ooh, yeah yeah, oh yeah

Now I may have wisdom and knowledge on earth
But if I speak wrong, ooh, then what is it worth?
See what we now know is nothing compared
To the love that was shown when our lives were spared and tell him

Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

Tell him
Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

greatest laugh you'll ever haveee!

booty booty booty booty rocking in a well!!!

Friday, January 21, 2011

nobody has the same definition of love, but everyone has the same definition of heartbreak.

i used to believe in love, i used to believe in fairytales..

then i grew up && got a life. experienced life.
i wish i could be like polygamist..
with like multiple husbands.
i know it sounds crazy, but i believe you can love more than one person.
i mean why not??
God loves all of us && so why is it so impossible to be in love with more than one person??
i'm not in love or anything... i'm just saying its plausible.
i mean i am... but its complicated.. i cant even articulate this feeling.
i just dont think that its selfish or even weird to be in love with more than one person.
have ya'll ever read "the rose that grew from concrete" by tupac??
its one of the best books i've ever read in my life.
i'm actually gonna check it out from the library again. lol.
you ever had the feeling that like you got an all around 8 in front of you but that not enough, you gotta mess with the 6 cause he has what the 8 doesnt && both of them together make like a 10 ++?!!
i know i cant be the only person that feels that way...
i dont why i just got this complex, i can never be satisfied with what i have.
dont think i ever will be......

Thursday, January 20, 2011

love without hesitation or reservation..

Trixie B.

my life's storyyyyyy! lol.

i like the last picture because i look asian. : )!

hiiiiiiii. ; ))
can you tell i have nothing to blog about??

Wednesday, January 19, 2011


....dont even wanna talk about it.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

sexy asian. ♡

i might be a bit crazy..

i know i'm a little psychotic...
but i wanna am gonna get married on 12/12/12.
its my destiny.

Monday, January 17, 2011

cut that shit out!

from the lack of posts can ya'll tell i'm back at school??

lol. cause i am.
i'll try to pick up.
; ))
i'm really happy to be back... && grateful to my parents for letting me come back. lol.
you CANT go from UH, dorm life, && freedom to HCC, house arrest && boredom.
lol. especially me.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

for every colored girl.

bahahaha. i was just kidding.
for whomever it applies to.


Dami && Kesef told me the sweetest things one day.
&& it really made me happy. lol. 
so i'm gonna blog about it.

ohkay so one day, me && dami were talking, she was like "if you had babies with an asian they would be really cute, if they had your eyes.
&& that made me soooo happy. cause i would have cute kids regardless, but i just pictured my features and my good traits with dark asian skin && either one of our hair, && the girl would be petite && the boy would be big. 
; ))
but when people are mixed with asian they look more asian than whatever their mixed with.
asians have very dominant traits. i wouldnt mind my children looking more like their daddy though.

&& then i was on oovoo with Kesef && he was dying over my dimples.
i love dimples so much, i just think there so sexy.
thats like the one thing i would change about my face. i wish i had deep dimples.
everyone in my family has nice dimples except me.
mine go like up && down my face, when usually people's go in. i wish i could put my finger in it. but i cant. : /
but its was very flattering that Kesef noticed, most people dont.

YES Lord!!!!!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

my favorite gospel song.

he killed it times infinity!!
&& i love how he's not putting so much effort into it.
its like he's not even trying to crash. he's blessed.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Ri Ri

one of my dreams in life is to be on the Real World.
omg... i would DIEEEEEE!
&& i'm real lucky with things like that too. i always win, or get chosen for cool stuff.
when i'm 21 i'm gonna apply.
like seriously i wanna do it so bad!!
i'll be whoever they need me to be the bitch, the crybaby, the alcoholic, the slut WHOEVER!!!
my friend told me i have a very altercative, if thats even a word, personality.
he said i'll likely get picked cause i'll fight with everyone.
well if thats what it takes i'll do it!!!
i hope we're set in somewhere cold like Chicago...
OMG if we were in Atlanta i'd DIEEEEE.
lol. i'm getting too excited thinking about this!!!

shawty bangin'!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

a snippet of my twitter rant about love, life && relationships.

  1. "Forgive me for "not having a heart" but life goes on regardless."

Saturday, January 8, 2011

yay meee!!

FINALLY updated the playlist. 
enjoy! ; ))

dont judge me but i've already started writing our vows.

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the truth is i'm more complicated that i'd even like to admit myself.
sometimes i like to cause drama cause i dont have nothing else to do, have ridiculous crushes cause i'm bored with life, over exaggerate cause i'm mad...
things like that.
&& especially make something outta nothing.
ahaahha. it true.. it happens more often than not.
had a very long convo with whiteboy early this morning.
i like the fact that he doesnt take my shit, or let me walk all over him.
i actually loveeee that.
i realize that the only reason i'm so dominate towards men is cause of my dad && a little bit because of my brother.
their always in charge, their way or no way, very strict, no bullshit kinda people.
so when i'm with people that cant beat the hell outta me if i can rebel, i usually do.
i like to test the waters, push guys to their limit, see if they'll break.
most do. lol. i have a track record.
i guess its the scorpio in me. *shoulder shrugs*
but anyway we're good now!!!
actually better than we ever were, i like the fact that we can be totally honest with each other.
i loveeeeee it!!!!

dont really feel like blogging.

i'm here.
today was a good day.
katy mills with tina && moriam.
got great stuff from charlotte.
then chinese.
then i slept my whole day away..
well most of it.
whiteboy called.
sensed something was wrong...
*shoulder shrug*
i'm cool.

Thursday, January 6, 2011


its was gooddd...
i mean it was cool && fun && everything...
we went to ihop. finally got a big steak omelet i was craving for.
that made me happy. ; ))
he came && got me from my house...
chilled, talked, a lot.
&& thats about it...
i mean... it was cool nothing bad happened.
except he didnt bring my Toms.
that pissed me off.
i gave him his gift.
he died. he thought it was fake at first.
-__________- do you know who i am?!
i was personally offended.
i didnt stay mad long though. lol.
now that we were together my heart raced so much.
i stumbled over words.. i was nervous.
...but there was no "ahhhhhhhhhh!" feeling.
maybe its just me... i be watching too many romance movies.
i put wayyyyyy too much expectation into this date...
i dont know why though. i mean i wasnt let down, i just was.. like hmmmm.
but anyway, we had "the talk."
lol. about monogamy. (only cause i watched it on sex&the city that morning)
yep! i actually brought it up.
i told him if he ever cheated on me it was over && i'd key his car.
i would too.

new club banger! LMAO. shoutout to Mudi!

make sure you listen to the lyrics!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011


i was like "i wonder what city @wale is in..."
&& that was his cute way of saying Miami.
my life is complete. the end.

its 4:03 in the morning...

sleep is a thing of the past...
whenever my eyes drop is whenever sleep comes...
i cant decide if i'm an insomniac or just nocturnal..
either way, sleep aint gonna be calling my name anytime soon.
so, i'm up.
thinking back on how my day went.
...analyzing each sentence, action && movement made by my surroundings.
after that i stop to check my phone...
no texts.
no missed calls.
i go straight to my inbox.
there lies my happiness...
&& i read... from 12/19 to 1/5.
the day we started up till now.
i smile to myself, only cause i'm embarrassed by half the stuff i've said to him.
i analyze a bit more of what he says... just to make sure i didnt miss anything crucial.
i'm still smiling. the feeling is indescribable, inexplainable. 
i'm not in love. i admit this.
i'm in appreciation... i really appreciate the way this boy is making me feel.
&& that is all.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Drake&&Maxwell *melts*

they need to collab. like seriously.
my 2 favorite R&B musicians. (after MJ of course.)

had a great day today. ; ))

took my love AJ on a lunch date. ; ))
actually Dami drove. sooooo.. she took us. lol.
but i spent the day with two people i sincerely adore.
we had lunch a kim son then did a lil window shopping.
the whole time i was picturing like a scene from girlfriends.
ahahahha. it was so cute. 
but i realized that those two people were the only ones who've seen my life. like really seen it.
all the ups && all the downs....
they been with me at the most happiest && crucial points of my life.
its not really hard to find a good friend, but its really hard to keep one.
&& we've been rocking for awhile now.
 aj attacked my plate. smh.
 the aftermath.
 the "homeless" look.
 look at my fusion weaveeee! ; ))
my loves. <3

ps. this nigga aj ran away from home!! bahahha
i'm like, "aj your 17. its called leaving the house."
he plans to stay out for a month. .___.
we'll see.

....rambles of a self proclaimed psychopath.

the heart && the mind are two separate entities.
i live in my fantasy world to dissociate from troubles && worries.
i choose not to wallow in self pity but to ignore it..

<3 TrixieB.

Monday, January 3, 2011

ahahhahaha. these guys. smh!

click the pic && make it bigger. LS!


watched Love&Basketball today.

i love that movie.
it makes me sooo happy.
i couldnt even tell ya'll why, my insides just smile.
ahahah. oh how i wish love was that simple. smh.
stayed in the house all day today. smh.
i need to get back on campus cause school for everyone but college students start tomorrow.
that means i'm gonna be home alone cause my sisters are gonna at school.
probably gonna pop in at Travis sometime this week.. i'm supposed to be having lunch with Matthew.
but we'll see......
life is boring.
gonna spend the whole day with whiteboy thursday!! lol.
i'm excited. its been exactly 17 days.
; )) excitementtttttt.

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