so whenever i do, i know that what i'm doing is very burdensome && weighs heavy on my heart.
i dont know... that thought just came to me.
i went to choir practice at this church over here in 3rd ward.
i miss RCCG choir && singing at church makes me feel like i'm doing something right.
you know, like getting a little closer to God.
its just my theory...
i was new at that church.. i attend their bible study there thursdays, but i'm realllll lowkey.
no one really knew me, or anything about me. (THANK GOD)
and after choir practice was over everyone was chilling and mingling && for some reason i was being anti social.
i just.. man idk...
i know the kind of person i am... i'm not perfect, i dont try to be perfect..
i dont hide the wrong i do, in fact i'm very up front about it.
i just didnt want to be judged by these "Christians."
i didnt want them to think one way about me && then see me outside of church and figure they were all wrong about me.
lol. get it??
its not like i'm putting up a front.. i'm just settled with who i am && honestly dont have a urge to get better.
it makes perfect sense to me...