Thursday, July 29, 2010

the first movie i ever cried too. i hateeee this scene. ahhaha.



random thoughts.

i'm gonna limit myself to 10.
  • its hot in this room.
  • i ate some watermelon today.. i will eat some more later. I LOVE WATERMELON!
  • Kenny made a video blog before i did. grrr.
  • i realize why i love Tear so much.. he gives me unconditional attention && affection.
  • sometimes i relapse, && go back to feeling the way i did for Andrew. (like yesterday)
  • Law && Order is like the crunkest show everrrrrrr!
  • a new season of Project Runway is coming on today!! && jersey shore!!!
  • i'm gonna go to the Drake Concert October 29. ; )))
  • I got the bestttttt giftt for Tear's birthday! ; ))  i'm pretty sure EVERYONE will be jealous.
  • i have a feeling i'm gonna be a well known hustler at UofH. sooo much more people, sooo much more $$$. ; ))

HUGE, LARGE, GIGANTIC sighhhhhh* Fagg.

its tearing up my heart when i'm with you..
&& when we are apart i feel it to.
&& no matter what i do i feel the pain..
when i'm without you.   
-BackstreetBoys.

there is a such thing as love.

people are mistaken.
love is real.
i LOVE Terrance O'Brien Burgess aka Tear.
he's my #1 fan, my superman && my guardian angel all rolled up into one.
something like a bestfriend.. if i had any.
been through alot with this kid but i honestly love him.
i dont think there's a better person in the world, that i could deal with && that knows me so well.
he doesnt take any of my shit. lol.
&& he listens.
i'd love for a guy to just listen to me.. not to just hear me, but to listen.
he takes in what i say, && remembers everything i tell him.
&& he always tends to text me at the right times.
ahhh, i swear i love that guy. ; ))
i'd give my life for him && i could honestly say he'd do the same for me.
no offense to anyone, but he's the o n l y dude that matters to me.


Wednesday, July 28, 2010

this is mybed.

this is how i sleep every night.
like seriously.
one side is filled with clothes i'm too lazy to hang && the other side i sleep on.
smh..
i'll clean it eventually.. Nikki (my mom) will make me.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

2.

i just realized he apologized first..
*shoulder shrug* he's better than me.
&& since he refers to my blog to get the scoop i wont talk about him anymore..
or anyone else for that matter.
my blog has turned into slug central. smh.
just want him to know.. ileee. ; ))

yea, well i'm the PRIME example.

you know how people say that kids only act out when they dont get enough love from their parents??

i always feel the need to explain myself.

when i get mad.. i get furious, enraged, && livid.
its like a thunderstorm, hurricane, && tornado all in one.
i swear its not a pretty sight.
but as angry as i am at that moment, just know that i will get over it.
like seriously, i say stuff to piss people off only cause i know it'll piss them off.
half of the mean things i say i swear i dont even mean.
lol. it seriously does make me feel better.
eventually i do come back to my senses..

i forgot to blog about this earlier..

so i was bored in class today..
&& when i'm bored i always text random people in my phone.
it just takes up time.. i just do it. dont think about the reprecautions.
so i mass texted 15 people. lol.
my battery died in an hour later.
but one of the people i texted was j. camel.
let me remind you.. our last convo went like this:
*phone rings*
me: hey..
j. camel: bitch. *hangs up the phone*
smh..
i didnt deserve it... but i understood where it was coming from.
after awhile i was a horrible girlfriend.
i treated him bad, cause he let me.
i stepped out on him numerous times.. lol. 
i swear i cant even help myself!
but this time he was calm.. we talked, caught up.. made amends.
well i did. && now all is right with the world!
reminds me why i ever liked him in the first place.
but i lovee the feeling of relief.
i'm relieved that jordan is talking to me again && doesnt hate me anymore.
i forgot how good it felt to kill animosity && beef.
now i can go to sleep peacefully cause all is right with the world.

Monday, July 26, 2010

dont quote me.

i find it seriously funny when someone quotes me word for word from my blog.
they'll tell me something && i be like.. "wait.. how did you know that?!"
&& they be like "people."
-___-
sometimes i forget what i write on here.. && i dont think certain people read it.
but word for word??
that cracks me up.

your Micheal Jackson pic of the week.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

sigh*

sometimes i just dig myself into a bigger hole than necessary..
no regrets for anything, but at times i just sit back && look at my actions && just shake my head.
i'm the type of person that acts then thinks about things later.
the fact that i even realize this is just annoying, but it doesnt help me to think first.
idk... i'm act on impulse.. i lack self control. && my emotions get the best of me.
*shoulder shrug*
i realize all this but dont know how to change it.
anyway...
after i publicly humiliated Jermaine on twitter last week (ahahaha!) i decided to try to talk to him on facebook cuz he lost his phone..
i go to his page... && this nigga deleted me!
: O i was in utter shockkkk!
like WTF?!
me && prince go back && forth embarrassing the hell out of each other && we still facebook friends...
like is it that serious Olanrewaju??
to delete me off your facebook && i know he only did it to make me mad.
well i hope you feel accomplished.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

i miss myspace surveys. lol.

Will you have sexual intercourse within the next two weeks?
well, i dont plan on it... but anything is possible.
Do you honestly have feelings for someone at the moment?
i have feelings for EVERYONE!  (the previous^ answer was a joke)
Will this Friday be a good one?
anyday closer to my move out date is a good one.   
What's wrong with you right now?
i'm just disappointed in people.   
Have you been a happy, angry, or sad person lately?
i portray my sadness as anger. read my prior posts.
Are you wasting your time on someone?
i hope not.
Where do you wish you were right now?
anywhere but in this damn house.
When's the last time you cried yourself to sleep?
people actually do that?? i dont..
Is it okay to kiss people when you're single?
DUHHH!
Have you everbroken anyone's heart?
i highly doubt it.
Have you ever been in a perfect relationship?
there is no such thing as a "perfect" relationship.
 
Is there a person that will always have a place in your heart?
all my ex besties.. i think about them frequently. except jermaine.
Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
mannnn, i just let it happen.
Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
this is houston. nuff said.
Are you nice to the people you dislike?
hell no, thats called being FAKE.
Do you have someone you can spill your heart out to?
i spill out my heart right here on my blog.. other than that, i'd say Tear.
Honestly, what's on your mind?
its like i have a fake friend magnet attached to my forehead.. i hate that shit.
Your ex shows up randomly at your house, what do you say ?
i know you didnt come here emptied handed.. what did you bring me?!
Are you a jealous person?
HELL YES! i'm not even ashamed to admit that.
Have you ever fallen asleep on someone?
lol. yeaaaa.
What's something you really want right now?
peace of mind.
What were you doing 5 this morning?
talking to kenny.
[therealwinefine.blogspot.com]
Who do you miss?
tina && all my high school friends.
Is it awkward when you run into your ex?
not at all.
Are you afraid of falling in love?
only cause i dont know how to handle letting go of that love..
 Does it bother you when people smoke around you?
yes, smoking is such a disgusting habit.
Are there things in your life that you'll never be able to get over?
yes, how my parents kicked me out. smh... they'll get whats coming for them.
Is there anybody you wish could be with you right now?
Aubrey Graham <3
Do you remember who you liked in grade eight?
i had the HUGEST crush on Princeton Graves.. but i seriously liked everyone.
Do you tend to fall for the same person over and over?
No. thats weak.
How much effort would it take for someone to become close to you?
ALOT, the only way a person can become close to me is of i choose them too, cause i dont trust ANYONE.
like i chose, Jermaine.. but he didnt actually choose me.. && now look how far that got us.
Has anyone of the opposite sex hurt you emotionally?
one too many times.
Have you ever broken anything beacause you were mad?
no.. i value all of my things.
Person you last sent a text to boy or girl?
a feee.
Is it possible to be JUST friends with someone you wanna be with?
no. && if you think it is KILL YOURSELF.
Is there anyone you don't wanna lose?
myself.. <--- damnnn, that was deep. lol.   
Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?
-____- i fall hard for everyone. lol. but i bring it upon myself so i really cant.
Can money buy happiness?
this is me your asking.. yes. i gave up on loveee awhile back. just show me the $$$.
Have you told anybody you loved them today and meant it?
i was told not to throw the word love around.. cause it means more that what any of us will ever know.
Would you change your eye color to blue?
this is a trap! lol. i'm veryyy comfortable with myself but i would like blue eyes.


p.s i'm not a toss i just like boys. lol.


jamilith.tumblr.com

DID YOU KNOW:
-Kissing is healthy.
-Bananas are good for cramps.
-Chicken soup actually makes you feel better.
-Its true. Guys DO insult you if they like you.
-Having someone rub your tummy when it hurts actually helps it.
-89% of guys would want girls to make the first move.
-Girls love it when Guys hug them from behind the waist.
-Chocolate makes you feel better.
-Girls love it when guys let them wear their hoodie or jacket.
-Guys think its cute when you mess up.
-A true friend will NEVER judge you.
-There is only one guy who is worth your tears.
-If you have a dream about someone, then that person went to sleep thinking about you. (i want to believe this one)

bahahaha.

my blog is gonna get a little artsy fartsy.

lol.
i've been into tumblr alot lately.
i just get so inspired looking at other people's points of view on different things.
&& how they express them with photography, art && fashion.
so other than my life, you'll be seeing more of those things on my blog.

ps.. i'm really digging this new font! lol. ; ))

Friday, July 23, 2010

photography.

i realized my enjoyment of taking pics is a mini love for photography..
i really like taking pics, usually of myself && people around me.
i thought it was to capture everything in my life cause one day i'd forget all the memories i've made..
but i realized, i like taking pictures.. its fun && easy to do.
now that i've realized this, my next step will be to figure out a way i can make money off of it.
lol. nothing professional, not even amateur.
i guess this is my hobby now.. we'll see.


my outlook on life..

everything is a shoulder shrug.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

WDYM fashion show!!!

  i hope all of you are excited as i am!!
&& i'm REAL excited.
have you ever had a dream, or set a goal that was wayyyyy outta your reach but set it anyway just cause??
dont EVER doubt yourself, or even God for that matter.
months of hardwork & preparing are finally gonna bear its fruit.
i'm cordially inviting you to the Well Dressed Young Man fashion show August 5th at All Saints Hall.
besides formally introducing the fall collection, we have alot in store for ya'll so come show us some love.
this is seriously an event ya'll shouldnt miss.


heres the link to buy your tickets. (only a few vip left)

http://www.wdclassics.bigcartel.com/product/fall-preview-pre-sale-ticket

 

heres where you can buy a WDYM shirt.

http://www.wdclassics.com

 





Wednesday, July 21, 2010

got big plans.. gonna make it outta this place one day.

the politics of friendship.

i'm a little hesitant to write this now cause people are gonna believe its directed towards them...
but i dont give a FUCK... i'm gonna say what i gotta say.
i'm talking about myself, my life, my past experiences.

some people just dont understand that there are politics in friendships.
well maybe its just me.
people dont understand that there are certain things you should && shouldnt do.
i mean like... its pretty much common sense.
but i guess common sense is not always so common to everyone.
i just dont get people... its because i hold my "friends" to a higher standard than the rest of the world.
sigh* its very upsetting when you realize your friends are not friends at all.
just someone you occupy your time with.
there's a BIG difference.
i tried to put up that shield...
"me against the world.. one deep.. i dont need anybody.."
but the fact is you do.
everybody needs somebody && if you claim otherwise your a dumbass.
recently i've let my guard down... its seriously not right to punish EVERYONE for what a few many people have done to me.
its hard for me to trust period... when i cant even fuck with my own family like that, what makes you think i'm ready to fuck with the world??
thats why i hold friendships so dear.
i have nobody... no one in this whole world!
it shouldnt be that way... but it is.
&& its not like i try to befriend everyone... trust me i dont.
but when i'm at a vulnerable state && allow you come in my life && treat you with nothing but respect && is ALWAYS 100 with you...
what makes you think that its alright to be disloyal, dishonest, FAKE, needy, shady, clingy, etc.??
i'm just so baffled by the people i've come across in life... smh.
i tend to make the same mistakes over && over && over again, by trusting people.
i guess nobody is to blame but myself.
one day i'll learn to truly not give a damn.
but until then i'll have to fake it.

i'm not gonna lie, i'm childish.

DONT call me your best friend but treat me like a commoner.

the politics of friendship.

coming REAL soon..

wowww..

I FEEL LIKE EVERYODY KNOWS A FUCKING SECRET..
&& I'M THE ONLY ONE THAT DOESNT KNOW.
I'M IN THIS WORLD ALONE.
FUCK EVERYSINGLE BODY.
THIS LIST IS DOWN TO 2 PEOPLE.
GUESS WHICH ONE OF THESE HOES JUST GOT DROPPED?!
YEP. YOU GUESSED RIGHT.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Dear Jermaine Johnson,

I hate your stinking guts. You make me vomit. 
You're scum between my toes!

Love, Elizabeth Jones

djaqskdfai sda askgdcd.

i swear Jermaine is the most annoying person i know.
like seriously.
i'm TOO pissed to even talk about it.
i havent told him about my anger problems cause i thought i got them under control back in my middle school days.
but he makes me soooooo angry.
AH AH?!
how can my "best friend" make me so mad??
smh.. wack ass.
he's not my best friend.
yea... i took the title off our relationship.
we're just cool. thats it.
&& he'll be reading about it first cause i dont wanna talk to his wackkk ass.
*shoulder shrug*

i need to make an "i hate" post.

i HATE shady people!
like damn... its either we're friends or we're not.
no in between shit.
dont be on the fence about it.
you cant call me your friend but keep secrets or only use me to your advantage.
that shit does NOT fly with me. smh.
...i think i should just throw away all the "friends" i've collected in my 18 years && start off with a fresh batch when i get to college.
that means dropping EVERY SINGLE one of you hoes.
(with the exception of  AJ, Dami, && Jermaine.)
i'm just tired of fakeness... 
if you make your way back into my life you kudos to you && if you dont... you don't.



Sunday, July 18, 2010

i'm so happy!! ; ))

my babes have blogs now!!
lol.
these are the only blogs i will co sign for.
&& i'd like to dedicate all of them to myself cause i had a HUGE part in the making of each said blog. ahahahha.
ps. i'm willing to help anyone make one. ; ))
actually i'd be glad too!

first is my soulmates.
mynamewale.blogspot.com

my lil boo
therealwinefine.blogspot.com

&& lastly the bad little brother i never had.
bobbyrose23.blogspot.com.

i want that will && jada kinda of love.

one thing you DONT do.

dont EVER call me a "bad" friend.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Friday, July 16, 2010

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Charlie aka PC.

i can freely blog about him cause he doesnt read my blog... yet.
soooo... i met someone.
he's a mexican. (ya'll know my heart is color blind.)
i call him PC, short for Papi Chulo.
i liked PC.
havent decided whether or not i wanna "talk" to PC.
he's not super tall nor is he a basketball player...
but i guess its time for a change. lol.

a dream is a wish your heart makes when your fast asleep.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

seems like everyone wants be make a blog now...

ahahah. i bet you think i'm about to say something disrespectful.
i'm not.
i like blogs... i love writing and reading them.
blogs give people an insight to your life... or what your williing to share about your life.
you can't judge a book by its cover... but you an judge it by its content.
i'm looking forward to changing my opinions of certain people... for better && worse.
anyway... be on the lookout for my soulmate's blog.
mynamewale.blogspot.com. <--- its under construction.
&& kenny's gonna make a blog too.
i'm happy i can positively influence my friends.


to my public.

i like the fact that you read my blog\..
but i sometimes forget that i'm putting all of me out there for the world to see.
you see my feelings, thoughts && emotions before i even have a chance to express them to you.
&& then when i finally do express them its a big deal cause i blogged about it first. lol.
sorry thats just the way i am.
i dont like to handle difficult situations, or confrentation.
i will, if its a must... but i'd rather just blog about it.
its easier for me.
so dont be offended if i blog about you.
you should be honored... that means your on my mind. ; ))

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

everyday, i'm reminded not to take life for granted.

BIP Tobi

everytime i hear your name, see your face, or think about you pain enters my heart.
like instantly i get sad && tear up && start to think about life.
mine && yours.
in 3 days it'll be 2 months since you've passed...
sigh*
dont really want to blog about this cause i get so emotional.
lol. actually i'm crying right now.
but i just want you to know i haven't, and NEVER will, forget about you. 
Ball In Peace Big Man.

Monday, July 12, 2010

for some reason.

i always have SOOO much to say.
&& i'm now starting to realize thats a bad thing.

he needs to get over it..

sooooo longggg time ago my ex- lover Jordan Camel deleted me from his facebook when we broke up.
ahahaha. its been like months... this nigga needs to get over it.
i requested him like last month. && he still hasnt added me.
&& what pisses me off is i can see all his statuses && when he adds other people.
like just deny me then! Gosh. lol.
one time i called him && he was like "bitch." && then hung up on me.
i only let him slide cause i was horrible to him.
but honestly i wasnt that bad.
he just didnt know how to handle me && let me walk all over him.
lol. remember this people.. if you let me take advantage of you i will!
anyway i find it soooo annoying that i keep getting his updates && he wont re add me.

you said you wouldnt give up...

i dont know why i believe anything you say anyway.



Sunday, July 11, 2010

tumblr vs. blogspot.

i like tumblr its pretty cool.
its pretty much how i want my blog to look like... with pictures and quotes.
you know very creative && colorful.
but you cant really write as much as i do on here.
i like my blog... i just need to make it prettier.
you cant spill out your guts or tell your life story on a tumblr.
&& when your fixing your tumblr do you say tumbling??
ahahaha. that was soo wack.
but I'm wack so its understandable.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

its about that time.

soooooo, i texted Andrew/Faggbot to call me last week saturday.
he texted back saying yea.
its been a whole week && he has yet to call me.
i've deleted his number... he sent his message loud && clear.
i'm hurt but its about time i...

billy doesnt like me expressing my feelings on twitter.

he told me to blog about it...
i'm just so indifferent.
i mean, i care.. but then again i dont.
its frustrating being your "bestie."
damn. i just dont get it. we argue every single day.
about NOTHING! we but heads wayyy too much.
i'm sick && tired of tryna make this work.
for what??
smh.. you know i'm dealing with a lot of things && you just make my life even more stressful.
you dont act like a best friend at all.
lol. my mind is telling something just aint right!
i try to ignore everyone's opinion of you.. but you havent proved them wrong.
smh. i had faith in you... just like everyone i know, you've let me down.
i love you though... unlike you that "has love for me" i sincerely love you.
&& i'm not just throwing it around.
you offered me your home && for that i'll always love you.
you'd do more for me than my own family.
you have some good qualities about you, your not a bad guy.
we just shouldnt force this friendship.